I confess…

I couldn’t figure out what to write about today so I posed the question on Facebook to see if anyone had any ideas to inspire me.

Wait. That’s not entirely true. I had one idea but my pride told me not to go there. So naturally I listened.

But the idea that was given to me on Facebook was eerily connected to that pesky topic that’s been buzzing around my head all morning (that I really did not want to share with the public). But I guess I’ll take the risk.

So the idea was this: How does life speak to you? And are you listening? 

I woke up early Monday morning and planned to get some emailing and blogging done before work. When I tried to get on the internet however, I could not connect. Confused, I restarted the computer and tried again to no avail.

So I left for work and assumed that with the storm over the weekend maybe we were having connection issues (albeit delayed). That night Jake tried to get on and it still wasn’t working. He called Time Warner and was only able to get through to an automated system which didn’t help to get us connected. We were both confused and decided that he would call again in the morning to see what was up.

The next day, about mid-morning, I got a call from my hubby. He told me I was really lucky that he loved me. I didn’t understand what he was getting at so I replied yes, yes I am. He then asked if I had any idea what was wrong with the internet at home to which I said that I had no idea.

Turns out, I HAD NOT PAID THE BILL!

This still irks me in every part of my being. Granted, we did move and I assumed our automatic bill pay feature would move with us to the new address. Apparently not. But still, it’s not like me to just assume without double checking.

I am known as the organized, financially savvy one in the family. In fact, just last week at small group we went around the room and each couple said something they admired about one another. Jake said he loves how organized I am and how well I manage our finances.

So, what was my problem?!

I can be a bit ditzy at times but not like this. I am the girl with the excel spreadsheet detailing all of our bills, when they’re due and when I paid them on a monthly basis. I check our bank balance daily and think about money an abnormally frequent amount. This was so odd.

Going back to the original question though… it was a wake up call. As my mom used to tell me in high school, sometimes my head is in the clouds and I need things like this to ground me again.

With all of the potential changes and uncertainty in our lives right now, along with some more immediate personal decisions I am trying to make, my mind has been all over the place.

I believe that when a series of incidences like this occur they can be used to pull us out of whatever haze we are in and add a dose of clarity to our lives. The puzzle pieces of my life are painting a picture of a girl who’s overwhelmed. Not unhappy, not angry, not depressed… just frazzled. I don’t necessarily feel like it (not in the way I did last Saturday at least) but clearly I’m not quite as together as I usually am (or that I’d like to be). 

So, just like back in January when I went through a similar season (Slow Down and Listen), I am going to take some deep breaths, make a list, remember the 6 on, 1 off routine and re-focus.

Listen… what is life saying to you?

Comments

  1. Hi Angela, great to meet you.

    You know, in a funny sort of way, this post spoke to me because I realize I am not the only one who can go through ‘ditzy’ spells.

    I think at different seasons of life we can all have dips and become scattered.

    I am similar to you in the way that I am (or was) incredibly organized, but sometimes when life or stresses pull us in so many different directions, we just need to embrace the fact that we are human and some things do fall through the cracks.

    At the beginning of this year, I lost one of my dear friends and I was participating in a blogging challenge. I had the ‘celebration of life’ to contend with, my daughters birthday and other personal issues, and I just couldn’t juggle everything and still be effective. I wrote a post on ‘slowing down to go faster’ and allowed myself a few days to simmer down.

    Even today, there are so many things I need and want to be doing, but I have to go easy on myself and try to focus on one thing at at time.

    I think part of it might be a ‘woman’ thing. Never mind my dear, overlooking the fact that your ‘automatic’ bill payment didn’t move with you isn’t the end of the world.

    Don’t beat yourself up!

    Best

    Jayne

  2. Hi Angela,

    We all go through times or seasons like that! Nobody can stay on top of everything all of the time – without fail. Especially when there are major life circumstances (like moving!) or even just having a few extra things on our plates.

    The good news is that you have acknowledged what is going on and you have a plan! Hopefully in a week you will have forgotten all about this, or at least be able to laugh about it!

    Stacy

    • Yes! Absolutely! Thanks for the encouragement Stacy. The whole thing has given us more than a few laughs since it happened. :)

  3. Sounds like you really need to slow down and pay attention to different areas of your life. And since you are aware of it you will be fine.

    • Thanks Catarina. I think you’re right and since that experience I have been doing just that! I appreciate your comment.

  4. Hi Angela, from one successful entrepreneur to another I can only give u one advice, waterer can go wrong will go wrong, especially if your not prepared for it. What I can tell you is educate, and train yourself to respond to situations like these, not react.

  5. Nice to meet you Angela,

    LOL. I never worry about things like that. I always say that if you knew everything, your brains would blow up!

    Have a great day!

    Lou Barba

  6. Hi Angela,

    Something like this just goes to show you, know matter how much we think we have everything under control, one little slip-up can derail everything, at least momentarily.

    It reminds me of some advice my father gave to me a long time ago, ” Mistakes are learning opportunities, Ignorance is making the same mistakes over and over again”

    Thanks for sharing Angela and have a great day!

    • I love that saying from your dad. Mistakes are opportunities for growth and we all could use more growth (whether we are asking for it or not). They key is not making the same mistakes over and over. Thanks for commenting!

  7. Hi Angela

    Great Post! this just to show that we’re not perfect..we try our best but there’re always that little bit of slip up :)

    cheers
    Easther

    • We certainly are not perfect. But with every slip up we have a chance to grow and learn something! Thanks for your comment.

  8. Hi Angela,

    First time to your blog.

    You’re not the only one. Things like these happens with everyone.
    Thanks for giving a good laugh 😉 !

  9. Hi Angela,

    love your question – what is life trying to tell you? I believe the universe is conspiring to bring us everything we could ever want or need, so anything that happens to us is an opportunity to look at how life is serving us. And so much the better when we can get a laugh out of it!

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